It's so strange, so surreal, to be able to freely bring him along on my adventures in life. There's no hiding, no secrets. Everyone can know, and no one minds it. It's such a relief. It's kind of fucked up that I couldn't feel that way before just because I was dating a girl, but I guess that's all in the past now.
I am so happy with him. He takes care of me when I can't. And he's not afraid to open up to me when he's upset. Although I probably make it hard for him to keep things inside, um...
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Stillness; a reflection in the dark calm
A ripple, a storm brewing beneath
Waves rise and crash, His hand lifts
Carried away, drowning, left adrift
A whisper, a gentle touch
She looks up, showing her face
Her colors reaching like fingertips
Resplendent in the ocean mists
Remorse; His wrath subsides
Soft sand envelops her feet
Grounded, still something amiss
His tight embrace, His frozen kiss
I can see it in your smile
The tired lines from too much trying
You've been faking for a while
You can't cry if you keep lying
When you can't take it anymore
Don't shy away, emotions flying
I sympathize as you empty your eyes
Your heart is finally breathing
Here in this town
I'm alone, full of doubts
My heart's in my throat
It's choking me now
There's no one I trust
To be there for me
If there's no one
I want to drown in my sea
Why do I feel so damned awful when I go too long without a good thorough conversation with a loved one?
I feel so lonely when I feel like no one really cares about what's inside me, or even care enough to share with me what they have inside them.
Every day there's something different happening. There's endless things to talk about. But people don't seem to be as much of a friend as I wish. They don't show that they care enough. No one does anymore. I don't know. I help other people with things because I'm their friend and I genuinely care about them. I don't expect them to always be there for me in return, because that's basically impossible. But simple things... Like listening to what I have to say, or texting me and asking how I'm doing... I wish people could show that they appreciate me.
Just a little bit.
Not to return any "favors", because that's not what I was ever looking for. But to show that you care about me as much as I care about you. Because the love I have for you needs to be fulfilled, and I can't just love you but not see it requited. It's just so, so painful. I wish I could see that you care about me. Because I need you to. I have too much love and I care too much. And it hurts.
My eyes are open.
My hands are searching the dark,
Trying to find you.
I truly love you,
My heart aches with thoughts of you.
It's longing for you.
I would give the world,
Give up everything I have,
Just to see you now.
I want to hold you,
Kiss you, and make love to you,
Breathe you in tonight.
You're out of this world;
You don't have to be perfect
To be my angel.
Keep getting stronger,
Don't let the tide drown you out.
I am always here.
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