I’m pansexual. I’m genderfluid. I don’t know why that would make me really all that different from straight people, trans people, religious or any other kind of people. Cause the way I see it we’re all just people. I love your dress, and I…

I haven't gone to class since Thanksgiving. My homework has been neglected, and I cannot bring myself to get to it. I don't know what's going on anymore. My depression is thriving while I stay trapped indoors, it's too cold to go on walks …

I really wish I have been keeping a journal since this all started. I have gone through so much this year, along with everyone I know. I have no access to the kind of therapy I need. This all sucks.

It's so strange, so surreal, to be able to freely bring him along on my adventures in life. There's no hiding, no secrets. Everyone can know, and no one minds it. It's such a relief. It's kind of fucked up that I couldn't feel that way bef…

Sometimes you get depressed and you can't figure out what's getting you down. You push people away and hurt those you thought you loved, and you can't figure out why you keep doing this to yourself.

Stillness; a reflection in the dark calm A ripple, a storm brewing beneath Waves rise and crash, His hand lifts Carried away, drowning, left adrift A whisper, a gentle touch She looks up, showing her face Her colors reaching like fingertip…

I can see it in your smile The tired lines from too much trying You've been faking for a while You can't cry if you keep lying When you can't take it anymore Don't shy away, emotions flying I sympathize as you empty your eyes Your heart is…

Here in this town I'm alone, full of doubts My heart's in my throat It's choking me now There's no one I trust To be there for me If there's no one I want to drown in my sea

Why do I feel so damned awful when I go too long without a good thorough conversation with a loved one? I feel so lonely when I feel like no one really cares about what's inside me, or even care enough to share with me what they have insid…

My eyes are open. My hands are searching the dark, Trying to find you. I truly love you, My heart aches with thoughts of you. It's longing for you. I would give the world, Give up everything I have, Just to see you now. I want to hold you,…

Earliest memories...

I've always looked up to my mom, so much...

Yesterday my friend (who doesn't know of my struggles with dysphoria) asked me, "Why are you walking like a boy?" I was a bit taken aback, and really complemented at the same time. Because I really wasn't trying to, I just naturally came o…

When I'm with you, I stay true to myself. With you... I feel right. When your hand is squeezing mine, I can find the sun in the night. I could write a thousand poems, And spend the rest of my life thinking about you, Because you are my hom…

This love is something intangible: As the threads of the universe It is sensed without senses. To love from the deepest crevice... My strongest weakness, My darkest secret. The feeling's convoluted-- A fear that's rooted In chastise and ex…

I just don't know what to do anymore. I can see love in the eye of the storm, But I could be capsized-- and drowned in the sea-- Before that love could ever reach me. I just can't tell if I'm already submerged-- If the crashing waves have …

Yukine and Yato I didn't steal the board, I promise! xD Tattoo: Snow

Doing things for attention? What the fuck no. I just want help. That's all I want: save me from myself. Please,

I had a shit-blown panic attack tonight and after skating around at 4 AM trying to recover I decided to sit down to write the thoughts that ended up settling.

I really wish there were just two of me. And I could feel myself in whichever one I wanted to at any moment. Hey, why not: one me would be a guy, and one would be a girl. The guy me would just chillax at home and skate, and chat with mah h…

These dastardly things to these bastards we'll do Push them to go faster until they can't move

Wishing on that star Which crashes into walls It's beating up my heart It's coveting my fall If this is not enough There's nothing left at all Four sides of conflict Where I had once stood tall And now all this wishing Has forced me down t…

When the moon thinks she can be as bright as the sun’s luminescence-- Where cats play with small objects Imagining real rodents-- Who dances in the dark field For an invisible audience-- How wind pushes blades and dust To void, or persuade…

Life could be so different already. I could be living in such a different world. The choices I've made until now... Are they really getting me to the best outcome? If I had the power of save and load, I could go back and pick a different b…

The pavement is hidden The black trees are broken The sky is white linen A caw from the crow and It rises and falls Fast and then slowed It builds up a pressure Deep in my bones I’m slipping away From all of this pain To set myself free I’…

School sucks but at least there's the little things... Today my crush shouted across the classroom to tell me she liked my haircut and I am now dead inside. See you in the afterlife.

I'm an artist. I do things how I want them to be done, with style.

I cut my hair at 5 AM Monday morning, December 7th, 2015. I finished touching it up yesterday with a razor comb that I was able to convince my mother to get for me. She freaked out at first, yeah, but mainly because she would rather I have…

Inspired by Red Hot Chilli Peppers.