Alone- Just Leave Me Be, Please, or Always Be There for Me

I've been hiding my true self again.
My sad self.
My burdensome self.
The me I wish I couldn't be.
And I can't help but tuck it away.
So that I alone will be insane.
All alone, I can't open up.
It's sick and twisted in my gut. 
But I can't tell them, 
'Cause I can't lose them
No matter that my mind is gruesome
I can't say it
I won't say it
That's my burden alone
That's my problem
And you don't have to know
Because
I'm scared you won't want to be there for me
Not when I'm like this
So please, for my sake if not yours'...
Please leave me
Alone